Chaos and Doubt

My website was down and it was my fault. I went into the cpanel and looked at the security settings and on one of them I hit submit with out changing anything. The website crashed and this was a huge moment for me. The hosting company figured out what was wrong and fixed it. They told me that the interface was not right so I did not feel like a total idiot.

Yet I looked at the last time I posted to my blog and realized that some times the stuff of life keeps us from doing what we are supposed to do. It is like that with everyone. How many of you have noticed that when you try to move forward and create a positive change things happen to your life. You have to finish one thing or the other.

Things get turned upside down and you doubt yourself and your decisions. The same thing happens in healing and doing magic or energy work to help others. You move forward and have the positive change set up so the person has the healing happen with his life moving forward. You know that you did a good job and that every thing should go well.

The positive meets the negative and the changes sort of freeze in place. What ever energies that need to be added by the person is not accepted or the person does not add them. Things just do not move or move in the wrong direction. The healers always have one of two reactions. One is I did every thing right so if it did not go right it was because it could not exist with what you are doing in your life.

The next is to try to problem solve. I am more of the problem solver type and treat each case like a mystery. Yet anything I do is allowed by the divine so if it does not work it is always the divine blocking it for some reason. It can make you doubt yourself, the divine, or anything you are doing to help someone. Doubt is deadly in healing, prayer, and in life.

People like to worry about things as if they are in control. We are in control of some things such as the bills, what we do and act like, our reactions and emotions and much more. Yet control of anyone else is impossible. Just try doing it in a marriage or with children. It will never work and will ruin every one's life in one way or another. People feel that they can plan their lives yet the only thing that can be planned is one end result moment. The rest of it and how it happens is always left up to the divine.

It is the same in healing and magic. You can pull down energies from above and set an end result in place. You can see the end result happen but then things do not work out in the normal way that you expect them to work out. It is always the change in the middle that makes anyone doubt themselves and that is where chaos and negativity can enter your life.

Once you get through the doubt and upset the end result shows up. It is not as you expected it because you put energy into all of your fears and did not energize the positive end results that you wanted to exist. You then go into the negative cycle again.

Doubt is deadly in every way and worry is not much better. I had a person who always doubted her magic and wanted it checked so she would be told she did good. Yet the time for checking is before you do magic. Doubting yourself afterwards is just like tossing all of your work out an open window. You may recover some of it but the rest is damaged.

It is not about drawing what you want as much as having the belief that it can happen. Doubt destroys belief in many ways and allows chaos into your life. Doubt of the divine wanting the best for you, saying God hates you, and other statements will block every thing good.

It is for this reason every one should think about this and see how they block their own lives. All divine forces love everyone no matter what religion. We have to appease our own fears more than an angry divinity. We can do a great deal of harm to ourselves by worry and doubt.

Life choices and how negativity affects your physical self

Negativity affects your life in many ways. Anything that causes negative energies to come into your life will impact you by causing a disharmony. It depends upon the person and what their weak areas are that show what the disharmony's change.

I have always been a person with weak health. I had eye problems and almost died when I had eye surgery from an allergic reaction to Sulfa. I had health problems and developed all of the family illnesses. It was easy for negativity to cause the health problems that I have now. Diabetes can be controlled by diet and I did so for years. Yet I can not do that now.

Do I love deserts? Yes I do and I normally do not eat them. Yet when I have things going on where I need to ground I find it hard to resist them. I develop infections and other problems when I have not been able to completely stop the effect of the attacks of defending another. I always figure that if the divine wants me to do this sort of work then I will find solutions.I have always exercised, watched what I ate, did not do drugs, did not smoke, only occasionally had a beer. I am overweight since I have been 14 from thyroid problems so you can see how disharmony's find my health the weakest way to work into my system.

Backlash from healing someone happens when evil forces especially demons or spells have been set up to kill or destroy the person that undoes the evil. The divine does protect the person but the demon or opposing magician tries to switch things at the last moment to make it so personal power seems to be used where they can try to cut off part of the help of the divine.

If they do not cause the disharmony at the moment of undoing the evil then they will cause it through the actions of others after the problem is resolved. The challenge is outwitting some thing that is ancient, evil, and intelligent when it is a fallen angel where you can use it against itself and have the divine there as a wall of protection.

You have to develop ways to make it too costly, to harmful and non-productive so the fallen angel just walks away. Magicians who set up spells and rituals to harm others are normally paid and told by the client to do certain things. You have to be sure they are hit and neutralized and the people paying them are hit and neutralized. The people who pay others never want to be inconvenienced by the evil that they wish upon others. So again it makes it too costly for them to want to keep doing the evil work.

You can do things that work with the truth and prevent bad things from happening. It may cause results and ripples that make it so disharmony's occur for others. The reason for this is they are not living in truth or being ethical. If the person who is protecting others always tries to stay in truth and be ethical it does work well for the people they are helping. The others who have any work cause problems will have it be because they are fooling themselves.

Every decision is a challenge and the challenges build up until it is like forcing someone through the eye of a needle. Yet those challenges are what life is all about and what makes it so we learn to be real human beings who live in truth.

So it is realizing that no matter how much people say if you do different cures, or act in a certain way. Be vegetarian, or many other things it still will depend upon what the disharmony's find as the weakest area that they can flow into in your life.

So judging others is not good. I always judge by results and by truth. All of the physical and other things including judging others by money or labels is just a way to feel superior. Any one of us can have problems. It is enjoying every one for themselves and not try to make the other person feel badly about themselves.