Inner Anxiety                                                                                  
Based on letters and talks of the Rebbe, Rabbi M. M. Schneerson

Often, anxiety takes root because a person’s external character is incompatible with his or her inner self. The anxiety may dwell upon other issues and obsessions—but none of these are the true underlying cause.


Most souls can tolerate a few inconsistencies. But others are sensitive to every nuance. As soon as some aspect of their lifestyle is not attuned to the purity of the essential self, the entire person is thrown off balance.

I received this thought in an email. It made me think of the times when I had been anxious over nothing. At least that is what I thought it was-nothing. Yet I have to say every time I have anxiety something happens in my life that makes me realize why I was anxious. At times it can be an overwhelming thing of worry and trying to dissect everything that can go wrong.  Yet I do the action or thing that makes me anxious and realize it was because of my inner self or soul.

I always know when I am anxious I talk incessantly trying to make others laugh so I can relax. I am nervous for no reason and I always discard it as just nerves from meeting new people. Some times that is all it is about and other times it is because my inner self knows that I am dealing with something that violates my basic principles even if I do not know it.

I am best at protection. I feel good about stopping harm, preventing curses and freeing people from demonic energies and other parasites that cause problems. Yet on other things it is cutting edges and feeling like I am on a tight rope. I have one of the natures that every nuance of my life causes inconsistencies to my soul. There are things I know I would die before I do them. Yet what about those things that do not seem that bad. It should be OK to do it and everyone else does it are the normal thoughts.

Everyone else is not you. You have to be truthful to yourself and realize it is not the truth. You have things that cause you anxiety to do. I do not like to lie, steal or enforce my will on others. I will watch others and be sure to be warned about what they do but I do not violate their free will.

Anything that is not right for the person always falls apart. We can try to analyze why and state it is for different reasons but we have to realize it was not for us. This is true in relationships, and every time we deal with others. In magic imbalances occur with negative forces that cause our soul to rebel. It will not allow us to do the things that are wrong for us. People who do the things that are wrong will always have an opening for a negative force to attack them.

Again it is the choices which the anxiety warned about and we did anyway. It is the things you do in your life because it is not really defined if it will be good or bad for you and your life. It is being around the wrong people and being naive enough to believe them. It is also trusting in the wrong things and actions. Our souls, guardian angels and forces of good always try to steer us in the right direction. We do not follow their advice and listen so end up experiencing the bad and doing the very things that cause us the most problems.

Some people are affected by negativity where it is almost impossible to make the right choices yet listening to our inner anxieties might help the people who do have problems.

Perfect Lives and Happiness

if we all had perfect lives, we would never know what happiness was because we would never be sad or mad enough to know the difference.

I read this comment in an email and I know it is very true. The reason the world is dual natured is to give us a comparison of what could be happening. We become grateful for the good moments. The acts of kindness we experience from others when we are down and much more.

The seven deadly sins are used by evil to access my clients among other methods. Sloth is the major one of these because the word was translated
from Greek improperly and means apathy and depression. The world is full of apathy where every one feels they can do nothing with the social trends that are happening to everyone. The depression of people has become an industry with new and different kinds of pills. Yet many times when things are bad it is healthy to have a depressed moment about life because it helps you to a solution.

Anyone that has been told they have a major illness or other problems will be depressed. It is just how long it lasts and if it leads into apathy. Depression can be seen as a lack of faith if it is long term. The person does not believe that God has anything good in store for them. It helps the bad things to manifest if you put more energy into being depressed and powerless.

My clients have shown me many times over the years that once they break free from problems they have more intense emotions, and more appreciation for things going better in life. They know the difference. If they keep focusing and looking for evil the problems are drawn back into their lives.

Everyone has bad times and bad things happen yet when they do not get any good coming into their lives something is wrong and blocked. If you think more of allowing your well being to come to you and focus on good things. Visualize them and see the end results happen it will work for most people. Focus is a big part of this also.

Keeping your focus on good thoughts and things you want to do will also make going through the bad times easier. Happiness is not a physical fact or condition of a perfect life. You can be happy in the worse times also. It is a frame of mind and it also fights depression and other things that make us go in the wrong direction. Happiness can be about having a shower or a good cup of coffee. It is all about perspective and appreciation.

The hardest thing to keep is a love of life and appreciation of life. Yet if you do keep a love of life and happiness you can endure anything.

Perceptions and Reality

Reality is what we take to be true.
What we take to be true is what we believe.
What we believe is based upon our perceptions.
What we perceive depends upon what we look for.
What we look for depends upon what we think.
What we think depends upon what we perceive.
What we perceive determines what we believe.
What we believe determines what we take to be true.
What we take to be true is our reality.

~ Gary Zukav ~


Reactions and perceptions are a big part of our life.  In the work that I do many people say God does not listen to me. Nothing ever goes my way and they believe it. Yet each morning when they wake up they are making their reality into what they wish it to be. Breaking out of that reality is not always an easy thing to do. I know that I have had my life shaped by others beliefs many times.It is because they are so persistent to have others join them in their misery instead of laughing enjoying life and having fun.

Yet why should I be in the same mood as others. Belief is a powerful tool and so many things try to shape our reality and beliefs. You watch the news and you perceive the world as a harsh place that is going bankrupt and many other negative things. Yet if we perceive ourselves as able to cope and deal with our problems and think outside of the box. We will not have those attitudes.You could also watch the news and say I have a great life and thank God even if you do not know who is helping you intellectually.

I have always enjoyed traveling but every thing seemed to happen where I saw the US and parts of Mexico or Canada. I never thought about planning for travel out of the country. Yet I always prayed that I would find a way to do my work and enjoy myself. I was amazed when I became well known enough to have people pay for me to travel to help them.  I did a good job, made many friends and my perceptions changed. I would have laughed at anyone who told me I would be going to all of the places I have gone to doing my work.

All of us shape our reality by our perceptions and choices. Anyone can do anything by persistence and belief. You can bring sunshine into someones life with smiling at them. You can light up your world by helping others with the little things in life. A compliment about a dress, helping with groceries, or any other way you can help another.

Reality shapes with the energies that we put into it. I do not understand why people curse others as who would want that energy back. People who nonstop complain always find something to complain about or they are lost.  So spirituality is also about just being thankful at times. Happiness is a state of mind and it does not mean that life has to be perfect. It just means that we are happy to be alive and know that by endurance and persistence we will have more things to be happy about in our lives.

Walking the Labyrinth

Walking the Labyrinth:

There are 3 stages to walking the Labyrinth, the Purgation... a releasing an letting go of the details of your life. The Illumination... when you reach the center, it is a place of meditation and prayer, receive what there is for you to receive. Last stage is Union... which is joining God, your Higher Power or the healing forces at work in the world. Each time you walk the Labyrinth you become more empowered to find and do the work you feel your soul reaching for.

I have been walking the labyrinth in my life at the moment. I know that I will do better in my life and not only was this a cleansing but also a purging where I can do the things that God wants me to do. It started with Facebook and a person wanting me to add them as a friend. I did not know this person but there have been many people who wanted to add me to their friends that have read my articles and websites.

Nine years ago I joined a group of people that were supposed to be working on exorcisms and helping people who had been cursed. I met them in person and found out how treacherous and self centered they were. I also saw in the group leaders energies that he would hurt others. I left on bad terms because I would not do what they wanted even when they purposely attacked me in a ritual. The link is
 http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_magic/fraternitas_hermetica-t21635.0.html

It was a big lesson for me as being in a group puts you under the control of the group eggregore and group rules. It means that any other leader in the group can attack you with out the normal shields and protections working as they are in a trusted zone if they have worked with you on the astral or physical plane. They can try to manipulate and control you and what saved me was my inner core personality that there are things I will never do and would die before I do them.

I had not thought of these people in years and after I added this woman to my friends on Faceb ook. She added me to a group instantly. I checked out the group and saw it consisted of all of the people who had tried to kill me with magic, ruin my reputation, lie about me and crash my website. I quit instantly and blocked the people. Yet the damage had been done because they had spells, rituals and the group eggregore set up to attack me. They are trying to find members at the moment and have someone posting like they are the greatest group ever. Yet this is what their actions are about to others. 

Four days later I ended up in the hospital and almost died. I was recuperating from this attack and have been thinking about it ever since then. It has been nine years and these people still had to pull these games on me. They claim to be spiritual teachers yet they can act in that way. They have students that can not defend themselves as easily as I can and I am sure they have killed them before. I was slandered nonstop by them and forgot and forgave them. I thought I could move on with my life and forget their insults. I was considered having too liberal of a nature because I would not hurt my students, nor would I do harm to others. Anything that happens to others that tries to harm me is always my being protected by God.

I ask everyone to look them up and then you can see who they are and to beware of people in groups. If you do join a group realize it is like having a family full of people and that you want to be in a functional family. Not one where the siblings try to kill you or ruin every bit of success you could have in your life.

It also shows no matter how smart you are, no matter how often you forgive others and release the energies that some people are just plain evil. I never claim to be perfect but work very hard to help others. I do the best I can and have freed many people from their problems. Yet joining one bad group who did not do what they promised to do which is help others brought this all about so be careful of your choices as we are all treading the labyrinth.


I submitted to the will of God and asked to be redeemed and restored. It is what saved my life and made it where I lived through the experience. I had this happen but I am sure that it was to move me on to the next projects and things I have to do in my life.  I also know that the people in one way did me a favor as it forged a closer relationship with the divine and showed me many truths about my life. So the labyrinth is a challenge and can cause miracles. 


Yet everything in life is a lesson. I left a group I knew was wrong like a lady. I knew that they would lie about me and slander me. I hope all of you who read this avoid these groups. I may have had it happen because of needing to learn a lesson about being to trusting of someone I thought was my friend. I learned that lesson and know that God loves me. I would not be here otherwise to try to warn people so they do not suffer the mistakes I have made.

I am well but on intermittant internet access

I hope that everyone will be patient with me. I am staying where there is only intermittent Internet access and will answer as quickly as I can with the access problems I am having. To my present clients I am still doing work even with not being in touch.

My quote for the day is to never give up on anything you do. Determination and faith will get you through any problems that you might have.